I’m told that I should tell you who I am, because that can help with authenticity – and I am all about authenticity.
I remember the first time someone asked me to be authentic in a specific setting. It was the first ever Connect Group I joined at my church, it was a parenting group. I was completely thrown. “Isn’t everybody authentic?”
Then, I was completely taken aback by how fallacious it was in my own life. Here I was claiming I was this authentic person, and I was walking into a connect group with every intention to spit shine everything about myself so it was much, much more acceptable. Rather than saying, “Hi, I recently quit my job, and now I stay home and homeschool my son. I absolutely don’t know what I’m doing. I know nothing about what is to come, and I’m scared.” I wanted to say, “I gave up my job because it was a priority to homeschool my son, so here I am, to tell you all about this great journey we’re on.” Authentic, huh?
I honestly wanted to bolt the second week, but the other challenge they gave was to stick with the 8-week session. I don’t take challenges lightly so authenticity and stick with it: got it. To be honest, there were some weeks I just couldn’t even bring myself in. I still feel that way in some settings where vulnerability comes to the surface. I feel that way now, because once I put these words into the world, you’ll have a piece of my heart and you’ll have the ability to comment on it.
The truth is, this isn’t going to be easy for me. But, I want to bring my whole self to you because I think the Spirit is calling me to do just that. My whole self isn’t very polished. It is my mission to tell you the truth about that.
So, who am I?
I am Amber. I’m twenty-five-years-old. I’ve been married for six years to my amazing husband, Jake. We have an incredible, funny son Julius who we homeschool. We live in Michigan, in a city we didn’t expect to live in. There have been a lot of puzzle piece in our lives that fell in place to put us right here doing just this.
Who I am is rooted in Christ. I am forgiven by Christ, not by my own works but by grace. I keep a sliver of wood next to the mirror in my bedroom with Ephesians 2:8-9 burnt into it. It is my favorite verse and it led me to be baptized a few summers ago. Jesus has given me the gift of new life, and I want to thank him by becoming what he calls me to become. This blog of mine is a step in that journey.
Learning to follow Christ has taught me that he came here to be with us. The more I read the gospels, the more I feel called to be with others. Which, for an introvert like me, is a scary calling. I want to step towards you in faith and be a friend who is with you. Along the way, I hope you’ll find Jesus with you.
His voice in our lives can change with every change in the wind, and it can be hard to find out what he sounds like if you forget to listen. I want to invite you into this space of authenticity where I will tell you about my journey in listening to Him.
I’ll tell you the messy, weird parts of this journey. I’ll tell you when I mess up. I’ll also tell you how Jesus meets us in those places with grace.
I am a woman who is called to Christ to become something she doesn’t truly understand yet. I think that can be said for most of us, and I truly believe if we can do this journey together we’ll always be better for it.